This is the second year that has passed where I’m repeating my mistakes. It needs to stop. I need to find myself so I can be myself again. I just need to take my mind off of things and relax. I just need a moment of escape. I need just a moment to breathe, just a moment to feel that everything will get better. I need to put myself back on track. I need to break out habits that restore memories because nothing will be the same the next time around. I am feeling so much despair and regret. I need to stop pretending that I can’t move on, stop making it difficult to forget. I want to go back and apologize for everything I have been for the past five years now to every single person that I’ve hurt, especially with all of the lies. I want to have nothing to hide, but my past is something I can never be proud of.

This year has been just full of twists and turns. I’m looking back to some of the major events in my life this year. High School graduation and the first semester of my college experience. I feel accomplished because I had such a workload. At the beginning of last year I remember I started likecandy.net with great aspirations. It just irks me that I lose sight of my goals. Things get in the way and I end up going in circles. My goals this year are:

1. Eat healthy and exercise to take care of my wellbeing. Get to my ideal weight.
2. Do something enjoyable every day to relax. For example, write.
3. Continue focusing on school and studying, learn how to set priorities and avoid procrastination.
4. Spend more time with my family; be there for them like they are there for me.
5. Save money and possibly find a job (if it doesn’t interfere with school).
6. Make time for friends and have a social life.
7. Become a more religious person, not missing a prayer.
8. Be more giving, volunteer for the community whenever I have the opportunity.
9. Be more of a soft and gentle person and try not to lose my temper as easily or yell.
10. Make a certain commitment that I’ve been avoiding.

In other news, all of my affiliates with sub-domains have been offered some type of domain hosting, so congratulations to them :)! I couldn’t just leave someone out, besides the minimum number to apply was 4 and I never reached that limit. I am going to have more contests in the future for those of you interested in your own domain name & hosting.

I hope that everyone had a blessed holiday and has a wonderful and fulfilling year. In case anyone was wondering, I am finally done with the two courses I was taking, but now I have one week off before I start school again.
I will now return comments. The beginning of this entry was a vague and I haven’t felt like writing a poem lately.

Q & A:
1. What are your New Year resolutions?
2. Does 2009 feel any different?
3. What were your greatest accomplishment this year?
4. What are you looking forward to this year?